If you really knew me you'd know how insecure I am and that I cry more than I should. You'd know that I've been disappointed so many times that not giving a fuck is almost an habit. But mostly, you'd know that every single smile that I smile it's the most fake action that I take every day. It's like a mask. Why? Simple. If you really knew me you'd know that I think that crying and showing some kind of feelings in public are the biggest weakness of the human being and it's the quickest way to call atention.
If you really knew me you'd know how cold and calculating person I am. I like having everyone around me and that makes me feel like the biggest loser. I don't trust in anyone. I've never found anyone worthwhile.
I cry, yes, but only closed in the bathroom where no one can ear me.
Finally, if you really knew me you'd know how miserable I feel just for the fact that no one know's me well enough just to stop by me in school for a couple minutes and ask how I feel in that day and not just pass by me with a down head, pretending not to see me, walking quickly to go find the boyfriend, to go smoke outside or any other crap.
If you really knew me you'd know that I need anyone to listen to me more than everything and I'm sick of the life I'm taking. The end.
«If You Really Knew Me», MTV.
